never look down

Well, I did it. I posted everyday for 24 days. I can’t really describe the amount of confidence I’ve gained from doing this. I don’t believe that I will stop now. I’m going to continue to post everyday. I have no reason to stop.

This has been an eye-opening experience for me, and I’m so thankful that I started. I still have no idea what the force was that drove me to do this in the first place. But to whatever that was, thank you. I never thought that I was capable of this. It may not seem like a lot to some of you. But to me, it’s everything I never thought possible for me. I’ve always struggled with the idea that I was a writer like everyone always told me. I knew that I could do it, but I never knew how. I had so many things running through my head at light-speed it was impossible for me to know where to start— at least I thought it was impossible.

Somehow I’ve figured out how to sort through those thoughts and put them down on paper instead of allowing them to float around in my head. There isn’t a book that gives you step-by-step directions on how to start making your dreams come true. It’s a process; it’s a long process.

It took me 18 years of knowing what I was capable of but not knowing how to start, before I finally found myself on the right path. I read as much as I could, watched hundreds of interviews, and followed my favorite authors as closely as possible.

Now, I haven’t nearly completed what I’ve set out to complete, but I know damn well that I’m finally on my way. I still have a lot of work to do in order to get where I want to be, but I enjoy this work. Writing down the thoughts I have is something I’ve always found comfort in. I haven’t always followed through with it, however. That is, until this year came along.

I feel like sometimes the universe is just fed up with your procrastination and the lack of belief you have in yourself, so it just up and pushes you a certain way. The beginning of December was when my life changed. The story I told in the forgive yourself blog is when I could actually feel a new chapter of my life beginning. From that moment on I truly felt like a different person. When people ask me what I want, I can now tell them. It doesn’t mean that I’m not questioning how to get there— but I know what there is.

If you have a dream or a destination for your life, in your mind— never lose sight of it. Some people say dreams can only ever stay dreams; that life can’t be as extraordinary as you believe it can be. Those people aren’t worth your time. If you have the fight, and the will, and the tough skin it takes to move on from their demeaning comments, you sure as hell can do whatever you want. Anyone who has ever had one of their dreams come true can tell you that it takes work.

If you want to be a professional athlete, you have to spend hours, and hours in the gym.

If you want to be an actor, you have to spend years getting told you aren’t good enough.

If you want to be a writer, you have to spend hours actually putting words on paper.

No matter what it is you want to be, or do, for that matter, you have to work for it. Nothing you ever dream of will come easy. So if you don’t have the willpower, either find it, or learn to live with the fact that your dream will only ever be a dream.

By no means have I made my dream a reality. Being a writer is an everyday thing. Touching thousands of peoples minds doesn’t just happen overnight. I don’t get published the first time I make an attempt at it. In fact, there isn’t even a guarantee that I ever will get published. But, damn, am I going to live a happy life trying.

I’ll see you guys tomorrow… Thanks for sticking with me.

-Kelsi

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