This is the latest I’ve ever posted… I’ve been resting all day because I made a mistake a week ago that caused these last few days to be pretty terrible. But, time to move on.
Lately I’ve been feeling trapped. I don’t feel safe and I don’t feel like I’m in the right place. I just feel like I can be doing so much more than I am. That’s how I’ve always been, though—thinking that I should be doing more. The problem used to be me not knowing where to start. I had a thousand different ideas with no arrow showing me which way to begin. Except that wasn’t the true problem. The true problem was me assuming there was going to be an arrow. I was crazy to think that something was going to point me in the exact direction I needed to go. That was up to me to figure out.
Now I’m in a place where I know where I want to go and a little about how to get there. But it’s a slow process, and I’m not good at waiting. It’s hard for me to accept that the best parts of my life are still yet to come. I wonder if they ever will come. I think that a lot of people struggle with that. Sometimes life is so rough that it’s impossible to imagine yourself happy. You have to believe that it will come, though. I feel like this is a very common message on my blogs. It’s not a bad thing. I just think that we all need to be reminded how important it is to keep fighting. Life is going to continue to knock you down and make you feel like your dreams aren’t possible.
Last night I was watching The Grammy’s and Twenty One Pilots won for Best Group Performance (I think). As they were walking on stage they took their pants off and accepted the award in their underwear. Tyler Joseph, the main vocalist, informed everyone why they did it: a few years back he and bandmate, Josh Dun, watched The Grammy’s together with a few friends. About halfway through they realized that they had all been sitting in their underwear. At the time, they weren’t known to anyone. They were just getting started. After this realization, Josh looked at Tyler and told him that if they ever did make it and they were able to win a Grammy, that they would accept it just how they were—in their underwear. And after he finished telling the story he reminded everyone that anyone, from anywhere, can do anything.
This story is amazing to me because it shows that you can literally do anything. It doesn’t matter where you’re from or where you start. You just have to believe and work. So, I just wanted to remind you of that today.