This is super late. Like I’m really disappointed in the way I’ve been feeling this past week. I haven’t been able to drag myself out of it. It’s like the harder I try, the further down I fall (expect a LONG blog about all of this early tomorrow morning… I promise). I don’t sleep at night, which then leads to the days being slept away. Everyone seems to be confused why I can sleep during the day, but not at night. They think it’s because I’ve screwed my schedule up so much that it’s just become normal. I disagree. I don’t understand exactly what’s going on; I do know that I am exhausted at night, my mind just doesn’t shut off—ever. Why I sleep during the day? Well, I think that’s because I’ve just come to a point where I ******I’ve sat here for twenty minutes trying to think of a reason why this is true. I can’t think of anything to make better sense of what’s wrong with me—so that’s cool.******
The puzzle pieces within my mind are scattered everywhere, and they are tiny. Finding the right piece at the right time is near impossible, and it’s taken me years to put what I have together now. This is just another time of uncertainty. Again, I’ve found myself in a place with missing pieces. I’ll continue to search for them, and in the meantime, I’m going to do the best with what I have now. That’s all I can do.