20 things I learned by 20

For the last two years, around the time of my birthday, I’ve posted this type of thing.  18 things I learned at 18 19 things I learned by 19 **By the way – the website the above links take you to is an archive site for all of my previous 289 blogs 🙂 if youContinue reading “20 things I learned by 20”

explanations – part 2

Part 1 from yesterday: expectations – part 1 As for explanation…that is one of my least favorite things in this world. I believe that certain parts of our lives should be lived without the concern of having to explain our reasoning to everyone, or anyone. Some bigger examples of that would be getting a tattoo,Continue reading “explanations – part 2”

expectations – part 1

I want to talk about expectations and explanations Personally, I have experienced the push to always have an explanation for everything I’ve ever wanted to do. No matter how big or small, I’ve had to have a reason for doing something. On top of that, there’s been an expectation to do this thing (whatever itContinue reading “expectations – part 1”

your happiest moment

What is your happiest moment? Honestly, from as early as you can remember up until now, in which moment were you happier than ever before? If you have no clue, that’s completely okay. On the other hand, you may think you know, but another part of you believes that you have an even happier momentContinue reading “your happiest moment”

change is good

“If you’re feeling frightened about what comes next, don’t be. Embrace the uncertainty. Allow it to lead you places. Be brave as it challenges you to exercise both your heart and your mind as you create your own path toward happiness; don’t waste time with regret. Spin wildly into your next action. Enjoy the present,Continue reading “change is good”

stop comparing problems

I’ve been thinking a lot about the stars lately. There’s a quote that goes something like this: I believe if more people looked toward the stars each night, they’d live a lot differently. When you look into infinity, you realize there are more important things than what people do all day… This can be takenContinue reading “stop comparing problems”

describing mental illness

How would you describe your mental illness to me? I would tell you to ask another question because it’s not as straightforward as that. Instead, ask me why I’m so quick to dodge a hand with the pure intention of patting my back. Ask me why the journal I carried in school was attached toContinue reading “describing mental illness”

It’s 3am

My sweater rests on my body, wet with tears from my most recent breakdown. I can’t feel the moisture, but I can see it now that I’m staring myself down in the mirror. It’s 3am. “Stop. Stop this,” I manage to whisper, barely audible. “This isn’t helping. This won’t change anything. Worrying doesn’t change anything.Continue reading “It’s 3am”

Be awake for Life

I miss wanting to be awake. I came across this Tumblr post earlier today. This is how it goes: “I miss when I was like 12 and it would be the night before a big field trip or something and I couldn’t go to sleep because I was so excited. I miss being so intoContinue reading “Be awake for Life”

To Lilly

Are you okay? How are you feeling? Did you sleep? Did you eat? She’s in a better place. Her time was up. She loved you more than anything.  You were her person. She needed to see you one more time. Are you okay? Seriously, are you okay? No. I’m not okay. I’ll never be theContinue reading “To Lilly”

To my brother…

To my brother, I know this may seem like a random thing. You definitely weren’t expecting this to come from me, especially right now. But, I’m afraid, I can no longer keep this from the world. What I mean by that is, I planned on telling you this in private. However, everyone needs to knowContinue reading “To my brother…”